071- I tell Lies. I tell 'em good.

[Photography by moi! Not borrowed this time. ^^ Oh and hand modeling by moi too. :P]

I tell lies. I tell 'em good. Speaking through my mind, I paint my dreams on a canvas of people that have no idea of who I really am. Dreams that scares me a lot more than it does calm me. And the constant fear of it never coming true, is the thing that drives me to deceive those that think they know me.. And quite honestly, I don't know how I SHOULD deal with it. The fear I mean...

So I tell lies. I tell 'em good. Lies which in reality, are just my dreams. My desperate attempts at making those even remotely true. The lies that comes out in a string through my teeth, its just me telling myself that those lies/dreams are true. It is a desperate hope to make myself believe that I was never disappointed. A desperate hope that somehow making someone else believe that my dreams are my reality will somehow MAKE it my reality in the end.

The funny thing is the doubts still invade my mind.. What if my dreams just remain dreams, what if it may never become my reality? What do I do when everyone finds out I deceived them? What do I do when I realize I deceived MYSELF? How do I move on from that?

I guess I'd just have to learn to be content in believing my own sweet lies. At least its true for a while..

So.. Yes, I tell lies. I tell 'em good.