020- Pause.

I don't want to take another step,
But I don't want to go back either.
I don't want to move forward,
And yet I can't go back anymore.
I wanna lose myself in this moment,
A moment where its all in place.
I'll lose myself if I move forward,
I am sure I'll lose you, if I step back.
The house of cards that I keep building,
Over and over again.
It comes crashing down around me,
The echoes leaving me shaken.
Listen to my heart beat, darling,
Its singing my heart's melody.
The words are pouring through me,
If you listen you'll get the story.
Its telling you the things I want,
It says, 'Just stop here and now.
Lets freeze this moment of clarity,
Let it be, darling, just don't force.
Just halt this day of no confusion,
Listen, darling, lets just pause.'

011- Honey, You need to lose some weight?

Suppose your boyfriend/husband tells you that you need to lose weight. What do you do? How do you react? A thousand questions runs through your mind as soon as the words are out of his mouth. Does he hate the way I look? Does he think I am ugly? Suppose if I get even bigger, will he leave me for someone with a better body? Will he stop loving me if I fail to lose weight? Is he only into looks? Is he even worth it? Etc etc.

And eventually these questions, they plague your mind with insecurities. You start feeling self conscious when you're around him. You start second guessing yourself. You start losing your self-worth. You start feeling frustrated. You wanna just cut out that part of you that he doesn't like. Basically, you feel like shit.

Is this how someone who loves you should make you feel? Is this how you feel when you're with that one person who claims to love you despite everything? Shouldn't he tell you that you're beautiful, no matter what? Isn't he suppose to find you attractive even when you have just woken up from the bed with your hair all over your face and god forbid, some drool running down the corner of your lips? Isn't he suppose to tell you you're beautiful when you have a really bad cold and your eyes are all swollen and your nose is all red and you have snotty tissues all over your bed?

If he makes you feel like shit, then is he truly the one you're meant to be with? Is he the one you see your whole life with? Imagine a life where you have to feel like you're ugly and unworthy of anyone's love. Imagine a life where you compare yourself with every person you see and the only thing you see are the way sometimes your tummy flab hangs and your thighs jiggle every time you walk. It's okay to feel that way sometimes, if only you have someone to tell you're beautiful no matter how you look. Someone who sees a beautiful person when he looks into your eyes. Someone who thinks you're gorgeous even when you wear your baggy clothes and hide every inch of your skin. Someone who sees you in you. But if that person says you're ugly and fat too then you're screwed.

You know he loves you and you know he's just saying those things coz he wants you to feel good about yourself. But how he says it is the most important thing. If he doesn't choose his words right, he's bound to lose something that could've been the best thing in his life.

So.. Is he the one you want to spend the rest of your life with?

003- Brutally Honest!

Today seems like one of those days that you really REALLY don't want to get up from your bed. Its kinda rainy outside, but as of now the rain has stopped. Its nice and cold and you just want to get lost between your sheets and never be found! Am I right?

So anyway, there's this guy I know, lets just call him Batman. So Batman is the kinda guy who is SO honest that it hurts sometimes. -.- If you were to date him, he's the kinda guy who tells you the TRUTH when you ask him if the other girl is prettier than you. :P Sometimes, you might just want to shake him tell him, 'Dude just LIE to me once in a while!' >.>

Don't get me wrong, I do not excuse lies in a relationship./ Lies like cheating are inexcusable. But there are some lies, you might call it little white lies that are IMPORTANT for any relationship. You might even call it HEALTHY, I mean, not always are you going to find everything that you dreamed in the person you ARE in love with. Love is just nonsensical that way. :P

You might find short, straight haired thin girls to be your type and BAM! You fall in love with a long curly haired, plump girl! O_O

Anyway, my point is, if you tell that person that you're type is so and so, she WILL feel insecure eventually right? She knows he loves him, but if he doesn't chose his words right, the girl is bound to get pissed off! BIG TIME! :P

So go ahead tell your girlfriends, they are THE most beautiful girl in the WORLD! Tell her she's PERFECT to you no matter how screwed up she is! Tell her the girls in your past were NOTHING compared to her!  I know, I know, she's not perfect! She gets on your nerves sometimes. She screws up badly sometimes. But if you love her and if you want to be with her for the rest of your life, make her HAPPY! ALWAYS keep her happy and in return she'll make you the happiest guy ALIVE! :)

Have a great day everyone! :D