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First of all I should start by saying that I am sorry. I know it's a long due apology, but son, know that I mean every single word I am writing. In the years that have passed, I have failed to give you a good home that you needed. I have failed to support you financially AND emotionally. I have failed to encourage you to pursue your dreams. I have failed to be there when you needed wise words. I have failed to set the example of how a good man should be. But most of all, I am sorry coz I have failed to become a father to you.
All my life I have wasted years and years disappointing and letting down all of my family. I have wasted years being childish and immature. I have wasted years in my naivete. I have wasted years being completely useless and absent from your life where I needed to be. And for that I sit here grieving my mistakes.
Son, I see you slipping through the light. I see you falling into dark. And honestly, I feel like I am to blame. And so today, I want to help. I want to say those long due wise words, that I am sure you've longed for all your life.
Son, the path you're taking will only lead you to a life of disappointment. It will only make you miserable and alone like I am today. I know things get hard every now and then. And the good times seems to be like precious jems. Like those precious jems, good times are hard to find in the dirty mud that our lives has become. But son hold on, don't give up hope. Don't make the mistakes that I have done. Don't fall into that hole knowing that there's no way back. Turn to God, before it's too late. Kneel before him and ask for forgiveness. Lord knows how I regret not having knelt in prayer even once all my life. And for that today I cry in Sajdha everyday, begging for forgiveness. You've seen my life pass before your eyes. Don't let yourself become the failure that I am.
I have little time to change my ways. I have little time to make up for my mistakes. My life changing turns has long passed me by. And I am afraid its too late for me to go back. But son, you have the chance to change. You still have the chance to undo the mistakes that have been done. To become the man that you and I both know that you can be. So son, don't let yourself be the person that you've hated all your life.
Its not too late to change your life and to ask Allah for forgiveness. Coz He is most Merciful and Forgiving. I want to end my letter with a Dua. A Dua that's coming from a man with a lifetime of regrets and a man desperate to do whatever he can to help his son as he's counting his last days upon this earth. May Allah show you the right path before its too late. And may Allah guide you to a life of success and honor. Ameen.
Love,
Daddy.
