Tuesday, January 31, 2012

074- A Happiness worth the Doom?

What I want is what I shouldn't have
What I shouldn't have is what makes me Happy,
What makes me Happy is what will make me Doomed,

So basically the question is, Is my Doom worth my Happiness?

Friday, January 27, 2012

073- An Endless High.


Frustrations disappear with a heavy sigh,

Anger vanishes inside this bliss.

Tensions replaced by an endless high,
 
All I want is just one more kiss.

Wednesday, January 18, 2012

072- Gellifa. [A Dhivehi Short Story,]

[Picture borrowed from http://kingdomheartsaxelluv.deviantart.com/art/A-Face-In-The-Dark-163834749]

Hayaathuge ethah dhuvaheh heydhavee amilla nafsah olhuvaalumehge thereygaey. Kuda kuda mausoom kujjakun furaa furihama vi anhen kujjakah vegen dhiya iru, eynaa mulhinves dhuvasthah beykaaru kuree olhuvaalumehge thereygaey. Hithuga foruvaigen huri ethah haas sihreh hingamun e ai maguge vaki hisaabakun khudhu eynaa ah ves foruvi nimijje ey. Eynaage zameeru bodu fottehge emme adi ah laa thalhulevunu fadha ey. E zameeru dhuvahakuves dhirigen annane kamuge ummeedheh eyru eynaa akah nukureve ey.

Eyna ge hayaathuge emme bana dhuvas thah ai iru, kaireega in hama ekani meehaage foni bas thah miyadhu ves hithuga hanjarakun kandaa negifa vaa kahala ey. Kurin nukurevey ethah ihusaaseh edhuhu eynage hithaa sikundeega dhauru vamun dhiya ey. Eynage nafsah foruvifaivi sirruthah edhuvahu madu madun vinuvemun aey. Bodu fosheegai bandhu vefaivi zameeru minivanvumah edhi govan feshi kahala ey. Hithuge emme adeegai vi udhaas thakaa biruthah angain beyru vee iru ehithah lui kameh ihsaas vi ey. Bey ikhthiyaarugai namaves e foni bas thakuge veriya ah eyna ge hiy hiba kurevijje thaa ey. Hithuga hatharu faarugai umeedhu thakaa huvafen thakuge kula levunee thaa ey.

Huvafen thah dheken feshi iru hithugai vi udhaas thakah nimumeh ai hen heevi ey. Eyna ge hithugai ithuru veyn thakeh libeyney kan eyru eynaa akah nuvisne ey. Ethah dhuvaheh vandhen eynage nafsah kanthah thakeh foruvi kamugai viyas, hevaa nubai eyna ah olhifai vee madhu faharegga ey. Eyna ah kutthakeh kurevifai vee namaves kushuge bodu kamun mayoos vaan jehey varu kameh eyna ah kurevifa eh nuve ey. Namaves edhuvahu e foni basthakuge ithubaaru eynage visnumah vure eyna ah muhimmu vee thaa ey. E dhuvahu anehkaaves eyna ah eynage nafsu gellunu kahalaey.

Miyadhu mayoosee ge aalamugai eyna karuna elhi kamugai viyas e foni bas thah alun iveyney hey? Eynage nafsa eku edhuvahu eyna ah gellunu hithaa sikundi alun libeyney hey? Nethas mi dhuniyeyn ufaleh miyadhu, maaf akhiruga libeyney hey?

Tuesday, January 10, 2012

071- I tell Lies. I tell 'em good.

[Photography by moi! Not borrowed this time. ^^ Oh and hand modeling by moi too. :P]
I tell lies. I tell 'em good. Speaking through my mind, I paint my dreams on a canvas of people that have no idea of who I really am. Dreams that scares me a lot more than it does calm me. And the constant fear of it never coming true, is the thing that drives me to deceive those that think they know me.. And quite honestly, I don't know how I SHOULD deal with it. The fear I mean...

So I tell lies. I tell 'em good. Lies which in reality, are just my dreams. My desperate attempts at making those even remotely true. The lies that comes out in a string through my teeth, its just me telling myself that those lies/dreams are true. It is a desperate hope to make myself believe that I was never disappointed. A desperate hope that somehow making someone else believe that my dreams are my reality will somehow MAKE it my reality in the end.

The funny thing is the doubts still invade my mind.. What if my dreams just remain dreams, what if it may never become my reality? What do I do when everyone finds out I deceived them? What do I do when I realize I deceived MYSELF? How do I move on from that?

I guess I'd just have to learn to be content in believing my own sweet lies. At least its true for a while..

So.. Yes, I tell lies. I tell 'em good.

Sunday, January 1, 2012

070- Happy New Year.

2012
 
[New beginning.]

Leave all the sadness, all the heartache and regrets in 2011.. Happy new year. =)
This year, Insha Allah shall be different. =D