083- Would you hold it against me?

"WOULD YOU HOLD IT AGAINST ME?"

Would you hold it against me, if I told you that you're not the same to me anymore? Would you hold it against me, if I said that I can't recognize you anymore? Would you hold it against me, if I say that I am not me? Would you hold it against me, if I said you are not you? Would you hold it against me, if I knelt down on my knees and said I've had enough? Would you hold it against me, if I said that I can't?

It's true that at the end of stormy path I found a light. I bathed in the warmth, I laughed with my new found clarity... And then on a lonely second of my epiphanic ride, I held my hand out and you caught me. And I couldn't let go. I held on tight...

Wishes were a thousand.. and of thousands were dreams as such. I laughed, I cried, I hoped, I sinned. And all for one destiny. A destination that I thought so surely I'd reach. My fairy tale... My happy ending.

And now, I've lost the hope and my sins mock me through my very reflection. I could so easily blame it all on you.. and yet its not. All I can see is my faults, my mistakes.

You really are not the same anymore.. Neither are you the person I thought you were and nor are you the person I thought you could be. My conscious mocks me, for I chose a shell of a man. A man who I was so sure could give me everything.

I can't help but wonder, am I just insane? Am I just dreaming? Am I ever gonna see reality for what it is? Hopeless, irrevocable chaos. From where there's really no escape. If I take a step back I'll break... If I move forward I'll break.. and if I stay here I'll lose myself.

Would you hold it against me, if I told you that you're not the same to me anymore? Would you hold it against me, if I said that I can't recognize you anymore? Would you hold it against me, if I say that I am not me? Would you hold it against me, if I said you are not you? Would you hold it against me, if I knelt down on my knees and said I've had enough? Would you hold it against me, if I said that I can't?